Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Battle of the Bulge


Battle of the Bulge, originally uploaded by A!ison.

Look away if you have a weak stomach. Yes this is my fat.

See, I lost 45 pounds last year. That's significant right? And people tell me all the time how thin I look. If you were told that enough, you'd believe you were thin too! But the problem is I'm still fat. I still have a significant amount to loose.

But every night I find something in my cupboard to eat. Even if it's a package of low calorie cookies, I'll eat two. And as I tear open that second or third bag, deep in my mind I'll tell myself that I'm thin enough.

Folks, I'm lying to myself and this picture is proof. I want to be comfortable in these jeans. Better yet, I want to upgrade to a smaller size jeans. I think I'm gonna post this picture on my cookie cupboard.

BTW, that is not my skin, it's my undershirt. When I saw the picture big on my computer screen not only did it terrify me but I realized the shirt color looked close to skin color.

8 comments:

PJ said...

hey brave girl...i was contemplating going deeper with this blog just today. bravo to you for going first...love you sweet igirl

Connie said...

Oh my gosh, I wondered why your skin looked like that... man, you are brave... you go girl -- get rid of that -- I'm rooting for you:)

Alison said...

Thanks girls... you have no idea how much your words mean to me today. I'm so happy that you didn't say something to appease me because that's not what I was going for. Clearly the picture speaks louder than any words. Thanks for reading.

motled said...
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Rev Roo said...

Awesome my friend! You are out of denial -- if I took a picture of my muffin top, it would look the same. You have amazing focus, so I know you will continue on to meet your goal!

Lindsey said...

I am so proud of you! Amazing pic! You can totally do it! I believe in you! xoxo

RollerScrapper said...

45 lbs *is* significant, but knowing you, Alison, I know you can reach your goal, keep up the good work with the exercise and the reasonable portions and you'll be at your goal weight soon! You're doing such a great job!

motled said...

Hey Alison, I also want to commend you for being so brave with this post. Needless to say, I agree with a lot of the other comments. Also I want to confess that the post is so profound that I had to delete my first comment because I felt it neglected the depth and meaning behind your awesome post. Your raw and candid approach to self-motivation is .. well.. motivating and honestly, endearing. And, to know someone better is to be able to better help that someone, right? So, let me know if there is any way I can support you towards your goals. <3